Floating

The most troublesome part of the situation is that nothing is solid. I am overjoyed that I made semi-finals in the design contest, and I am ecstatic about possibly filming another segment for tv, but the good things just add the the limbo I'm in due to my job being shaky. I want to know that I have something I can count on, and at this point I can't say that about anything going on with me. Friday night I was very impatient with Chuck since I was uneasy in general. I told him that he shouldn't take it personally, and that my patience is the first thing to go when I feel uneasy. He seemed to understand, but I still felt badly for my state of mind affecting him. He told me later that if what he saw on Friday was the worst then he is happy. I was suprised. I guess things may not be as bad as I thought. I just hope this week brings some finality to the whole job search and I can rest easy knowing that I will be able to get a steady paycheck (hopefully in something I enjoy doing).