Torn

There are two ways I could go at this point: Either I can find something I like to do, that makes me more than enough money, and takes up a lot of my time; or I could find a job waiting tables
or something else to get by and use my oodles of free time to push the fashion line and model. Because I am still young I feel that I have the energy it takes to devote myself to the business and build it. I don't have to answer for myself waiting tables now like I will have to went I am older. Most 20 somethings don't even know what they want to be when they grow up. On the other hand, if I take the full time job route I will wind up being able to save money and pay off some debts which will let me relax financially as well as have some extra cash to devote to the business. I am literally stuck in the middle. My friends are too. I tend to be the type who is very concerned with my finances so waiting tables to make ends meet will stress me out. I like to know that I have a paycheck and that it is enough to pay for everything. On the other hand, when I am employed 40 hours a week, I cannot devote the time to one thing that truly makes me happy, which is the fashion line. It's a catch 22. I guess I will have to pursue both routes and whichever one works out first, wins.