The Beginning of the End

Chuck is not keeping up. In fact, I have had enough of the fact that I cannot even attempt to contact him regularly. When we get together it's because I show up when I'm supposed to and I have to stay over at his place 90% of the time. His bed is too firm and his pillows too soft. I wake up with my neck and shoulders so stiff my chiropractor commented that I am taking a turn for the worse (since the car accident my neck and shoulder are really touchy). It's rather irritating to have all the responsibility in the relationship. On top of that I have to pay for nearly everything. Chuck has no phone, no car, no money, and very little motivation to change these things. I find no other way to correct the situation other than leaving it entirely. Unfortunately, Chuck is so "in love" with me that it would crush him to completely opt out, so I had to tell him that we needed a break for a while. He cannot put all the responsibility on me, and until he is able to carry his own half of the relationship we will not be together. What I would rather have done was just made a clean break of it and remained friends, if anything. Nothing is less attractive than a man that cannot provide anything in a relationship. I don't ever want to be in this situation again. Hopefully I am able to ease out of my half-ended relationship without too much drama. In the mean time, boy number two is calling me regularly. I have gone out with him a few times, and he pays every time. He even comes to pick me up even though I am not on the way. While all this is good I can't seam to figure out if I am actually sexually attracted to him. I think I may need to give myself some time before I really get into another relationship. Boy number two leaves next weekend for a trip to Europe, so perhaps that will give me the breathing room I need.