In The Know

I finally told Allen that I didn't think things were really clicking between the two of us. He was not a happy camper, but I'm glad I was able to say it. He leaves for Europe tomorrow, and I think that it will give him a chance to forget about the relationship he thought would blossom between the two of us. Honestly, I am not completely certain that the current environment is not also contributing to my lack of sex drive. Outside of Allen himself I have just started a new job, broken up with the deadbeat boyfriend, and have yet to receive my first paycheck. At this point in time my mind is in a million places at once. I have a photo shoot on Monday to worry about, the uniforms that I still need to sew up, the accompanying press releases, and the new gig too. I want so badly for things to settle down, and I don't have the patience for boys right now. Sam has been attempting to reconnect with me recently, and I don't even feel the least bit excited about him either. Perhaps I am surrounded with lots of sub-par guys or I am just mojo-free at this point. Whatever the cause I know that things won't be developing between me and Allen, or rekindling between Chuck and I.