Moment of Weakness

Last night I had a total girl moment. I needed "closure." There was this guy who I was seeing back when there was a lot of drama going on in my life. Aside from having just been in the car accident I was also having my apartment broken into on a regular basis. It was probably the most physically and emotionally painful part of my entire existence thus far. The guy in question knew what was going on, but I never showed him how very stressed and scared I was. We had been talking extensively on the phone for a few weeks and decided to meet. We met, and things went well. After our first date, though, he stopped calling as much, and then not at all. For some reason, I became a total nutcase on him. I messaged him more than once asking for a reason why, chiding him for running away, and yelling at him for being such a horrible guy. It was stupid of me to show someone, who clearly didn't want to speak to me, my feelings. Why bare your soul to someone who doesn't care? Had I not been under the stress I was I don't think he would have received those messages. So last night, when I accidentally drove through his neighborhood, I was reminded of the craziness. I sent him one last message. I apologized for the previous messages, assured him this was my last contact with him, and that was all. Generally speaking, I am very good about expressing my resentment to my girlfriends rather than the guys (once it's over, only the girl is left looking for answers). Since I was unable to keep it to myself this time, I had to leave one last "girl note" while I was at least in a stable emotional state.