Saturday, March 1, 2008
(R)evolution
Since Chuck lost his job (along with his already missing car, phone, and cash) I have been less attracted to him. Women are genetically programmed to find a fit mate for breeding, and I think that is what is happening to me. Chuck is in a very unstable position. He is not secure financially at all, and will not be for a while. I am turned off by him because he is an unfit mate for breeding. Now, the question is, do I wait and see if something changes? Perhaps when he gets a job I will want him more, and things will get better. Breaking up with Chuck now would only be kicking him while he is down. However, it is unfair to me to stay with Chuck when I am clearly not attracted to him. I feel myself pulling away. I just don't know when it is that I should pull the trigger. I will see him tomorrow. Hopefully I will understand better how to deal with this situation. I find it interesting that, in the beginning, I loved that Chuck was so into me, made time for me, and called often. The things that other men were not doing, Chuck was. At this point, however, that is the only thing left. The other men I was dating had steady jobs, cars, cell phones, and a future. What they lacked Chuck had, and what they have Chuck lacks. I guess I can't get it right no matter what.
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