Status: Inactive

Allen, aka guy number two, is calling me nonstop. While I should be excited to be pursued this way I find myself strangely repelled by this behavior. Only one thing could be the culprit: I am not attracted to Allen. Physically he is my type. He is tall, broad, with dark hair and a medium complexion (I cannot date blonds even though I am one myself). We have fantastic conversations, but when it comes to anything more than cuddling I am just not interested. Kissing Allen is like making out with my cousin. It just seems wrong. Surely, the fact that he is not the best kisser (thin lips+squashing my face=yikes!) doesn't help things. I would bet that Allen is not so experienced (though he is in his mid-twenties). While some women like to be able to teach their men how to please them I am the type to want them to come equipped beforehand. Besides, I think that I deserve to find someone who is already established career wise, and Allen is working on finishing his college degree. His day job is working as a supervisor in a grocery store (clean up in aisle 4!). The situation at this moment is that I now have to tell him how I feel. I am not in the business of leading people on, though I am sure Allen will not like what I have to say. Truth is, I just can't fake it anymore with him. Sleeping with him is definitely not going to happen, so it's time to come clean. Tonight I will have to spell it out. I have to.