A&R

Allen and Rafi are rivals. Aside from Allen calling me entirely too frequently for my liking I had no complaints about him. I wasn't very attracted to him, and after I had some space I realized that Allen and I were completely incompatible. Rafi and I, however, are so compatible it's scary. I have now been able to find the patterns that allow me to anticipate (for myself) when Rafi is going to forget to call me or be unable to hang out. I don't listen to what he says completely because I know what to expect which makes me less reactive when something happens. Physically and emotionally, though, we are very good for each other. He is a really caring person, and makes me want to be a more positive individual. Allen, on the other hand, is turning out to be very scheming. I was talking with him today for a short period of time and he kept fishing for information about myself and Rafi. I never said a word to him about having any kind of connection with him. Rafi later said that he told Allen this weekend that we were together, so Allen was fact checking in a round-about way. As far as I'm concerned it's best to come right out with something rather than trying to play Sherlock Holmes. Regardless of Rafi's importance, Allen didn't stand a chance. Perhaps he will think of this as an excuse as to why he is not with me. Truth is he just shouldn't be with me. Rafi, however, felt that my involvement with Allen indicated that he was the last on my list. He felt like I didn't really value him when, if anything, I was too into him so I didn't want to jump the gun and screw things up. Because it's still a new, budding relationship I don't want to get too emotionally invested before I really have time together with Rafi (we haven't gone on a proper date yet!). Deep down, though, I know he is going to be a very noteworthy person in my life.