Crumbs

Rafi pretty much gave me an ultimatum today. I am Jewish and in the mid-range of the conservative religious sect. I don't eat pork or seafood, but I do eat at non-kosher restaraunts. Rafi, however, is pretty religious and plans on becoming more religious in his life. Right now it's Passover, and all the crumbs are supposed to be cleaned from the house, car, and other personal spaces for the holiday. While doing him a favor, and fixing his jeans I was talking to Rafi in front of my car when he noticed that I had not been able to vacuum it. I did make sure I had removed all the food from the car, but Rafi was very disturbed that I had not finished the job. Also, since I do not fully observe the sabbath he is now completely unsure that we have the faintest future together. My entire life I have been very worried that I would not be able to find someone who loves me for who I am, and accepts my religious views. Ideally I would be able to marry a Jew who shares my religious identity and would give our kids a Jewish education. Now I am with a Jew who finally qualifies and he is telling me there is no future for us. More than anything I am frustrated. I don't know what to do at this point. I don't want to get more attached to someone who would never be with me. That will only cause me to really be opening myself up for heartbreak. I cannot, at this point in my life, adopt all the religious things I would like for my family life. I have to make sure that I can make my ends meet and live my life. If Rafi doesn't have the patience to wait for me to adopt the things he wants for his life then he will be right, and there will be no future with us.