The Inside Out

Being the child of a social worker makes me a virtual open book. As I have gotten older I have become less of a loose cannon, but sometimes others will still view me that way. Last night Rafi and I were supposed to see each other, but when I called at 9 he didn't answer. At 10:30 when he picked up it turns out he fell asleep. He said he would call me once he took a shower. I knew not to believe him. This morning when he went to work at 8am he called me. I was still sleeping and didn't pick up. He text messaged me with "miss u sleepy girl." Why make a comment about me being sleepy at 8am when you slept through our date last night? I talked to him when I woke up. I told him at least I am asleep on my own time when he is at work. He says that he cannot help the way he is. I told him that being unreliable is probably one of my top 5 pet peeves. He cannot expect me to be okay with us seeing each other less than half the time that we actually make plans. To anyone else this looks like lack of interest. It is not such a strange reaction. I told him that I can work on being more easy going but he has got to work on being more consistent. It has to go both ways. Otherwise I will max out my patience and he will be left wondering why I started dating someone else. Guys always say they want to know what is going on inside the heads of women. I show exactly what I'm thinking, and he still finds no relief in it. Now he just wants me to think what is convenient for him. Too bad. That is not the name of the game here. We are dating not playing Simon says.