Making a List

One of the functions of facebook is that they suggest profiles of people you may know based on mutual friends. Yesterday I ran across the profile of a guy who I dated very very briefly, and who I totally forgot I had been with at all. He is the definition of a blip on the radar. Ironically, even though he didn't last long (in more ways than one) he did become a notch on my bedpost. My best friend decided that I should really make a list so that I don't forget who I have slept with. Honestly I think it's better not knowing for sure. I would guesstimate that I have been with somewhere between 25-30 guys at this point. I will never really know for sure. At this point I don't want to be worried about numbers when I can be concerned about quality. Also, I really don't feel like beating myself up about a connection gone wrong should also be coupled with remorse about having added another "guy to my list." With guys I have learned to stop gauging them by how many partners they have had, and become more concerned about how they are with me. People change. For many years I had only been with 5 guys total, and in a terrible break up I racked up almost 8 in one year. Phases are what build character. I would hope not to be judged by a guy for how many partners I have had. If he is the one, he will be the last one on the list. If no one comes afterwards I feel that would be the ultimate accomplishment, regardless of how may have come before.