Face Forward

Marc never called. After 2 full days I put my profile back up for the last few days until my month-long subscription to the dating site ends. I got back in touch with 3 or so guys that I had been interested in. Marc still has yet to make contact with me, but had logged back in recently to the dating site. I was right about it being over. Going forward I hope that I find someone who will be a good fit for me as a boyfriend. I also hope I find a good fit in a job. Now that I have had a few opportunities fall through, I am getting very anxious waiting to find out what my next move is going to be. At this point I feel that I am losing a certain amount of control of my destiny. Because of this I am fearful that I will not find a job in time to make end meet, and I am falling down on getting necessary things done. Also I have an opportunity to apply for a spot in a major reality television show. Professionally the chance to participate in something national would be great exposure for myself and my company. At this time, however, I feel that it may not happen simply because so many other things have been going in strange directions. Most of the time I feel that the universe takes me in a positive, necessary course, but that doesn't seem to be happening right now. Perhaps I am being a pessimist for the time being. I just need to feel like something is meant to be. Even if things are not working out I can still see a direction being carved out for me. Right now that direction is unclear. I hope the fog lifts.