Newbie

The initial stages of dating are always both elating and terrifying. The butterflies and first kisses are wonderful, but after the 4th or 5th date the "where is this going?" question starts to pop into every woman's head. One of the things I pride myself on is being able edit some of the things that women say which scare men. Instead of being overly emotional I can play it pretty cool. Every once in a while, though, I cannot control my emotions. The guy I am seeing right now (who is not the same one I posted about earlier) has been in the picture for about 3 weeks. We have gone out alone and with his friends. He doesn't seem to be a big phone guy, but he is good about text messaging me pretty consistently. I think that he is the type of guy that I could really be with long-term. This realization is both sweet and sour for me. It has been years since I could say that I really felt safe with someone. Since we met online, there are certain things that come into play in this particular situation. The first is that we do not know each other through anyone else, so there is no one to vouch for either of us. The second is that we can see when the last time we went on the dating site is, and that can be a blessing an a curse. Out of curiosity I went online to check my profile (and hide myself in searches), and decided to check up on him. Turns out he logged on last night. I'm not really sure that this means he is still looking, but it wasn't the best feeling to see that he is still an active member in the online dating world. I feel like if I say nothing then I will be the one at fault, but I don't really think now is the time to be doing that type of thing. If he is on the edge, then pulling something like that will only cause him to bail. There is always the possibility that he was on there last night checking if I had logged on (which I hadn't)...so for now I have to curb the urge to speak.