Cold Turkey: Dead Meat?

It has officially been over 30 days since I last had sex. Considering that this has not occurred since I became sexually active at the age of 16 this is quite the landmark. In a decade I have managed to rack up over 30 partners, and never get to the end of a pack of birth control pills without getting laid. I can say, though, that I am rather pleased with myself. When I was in relationships it was great to have consistent sexual gratification, but as a single girl (which I have been for about 2 years now) having sex that often is more headache (and heartache) than it's worth. The last few partners I have had didn't really stick around long enough for me to trust them to a point that I could let go in bed. By holding back I really was there to get them off, rather than allowing myself to even get to the point of orgasm. In actuality, it was the least gratifying sex I have had. I'm better off with my "battery powered friends" in the long run. Quitting sex cold turkey has been beneficial to me on many levels. Perhaps someone who is really worthwhile will come along and break my hiatus, but in the mean time I am not looking to fill the space with men who are not looking for commitment. When you can look at your sex life, and find a way to pitch it as a Lifetime Friday night movie: That's when you know something has got to change.