Possibilities

Though each guy had a different face, name, and personality I feel like they all blend together in similar ways. No matter how things started they were always going to fail. The key ingredient was different on each person, but one thing was always missing. How do you have a relationship with someone who isn't fully worthy? I guess the answer is that you don't. I met a guy recently who is similar to myself in many ways, and also has his own unique sensibilities and interests. I find myself in long conversations with him constantly, and it's really refreshing to finally have someone that I connect with in that way. On top of that he is not into playing games with me, and has been really consistent about finding time to hang out, and I don't feel like I have to second guess myself before calling him. My mother will even approve because he is a nice Jewish boy. Now, of course, we haven't yet slept together (so there may be a hitch to the plan, but it's too early to tell) so I cannot tell how he is in bed. I can say, though, that as long as things continue in the current path that I may very well have myself a real, live boyfriend! Relationships take two people, and both parties have to put in effort to make things work. For the past 3 weeks I was appropriately expiration dating a guy who was in town on business for a month. He leaves to go back to the west coast tomorrow afternoon. The consistency of having a guy around who made regular plans to see me was great, but obviously the situation would be very short lived (thus the "expiration" part of the dating scenario). It was nice to get my feet wet with him, but having this new guy who lives here take interest in me allows me to think that perhaps I am finally able to have a long term relationship. It has been nearly 3 years since anything closely resembling a relationship has lasted over 3 months. Now, I don't want to count my eggs before they hatch (we all know, with me, chickens tend to find their ways to fly the coup), but there is a real possibility here, and that is a lovely thought. Perhaps things will really work out after all.