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I spent the last week in limbo. Adam did a great job of returning my texts, but didn't initiate contact on his own. Since I am well aware of the differences between us I was concerned that he would be as well. I stopped texting him for 2 days, and he didn't make any effort to see what I was up to. I feared for the worst. Finally I sent him one last text message on Friday, and I swore to myself that if he didn't respond I would cease to contact him completely. Thankfully Adam replied. He wanted to call me on Saturday evening. I told him I would be available after 7:30pm, and he sent me a text at 8pm to say that he would call me in a while. The half-hearted contact only served to make me feel the anxiety more intensely. I finally called Adam myself after an hour passed. The conversation was completely normal, but short. I kept waiting for him to get into telling me that we can no longer see each other. That moment never came. He did, however, have to go babysit for his niece so we only spoke for a few minutes. Once he was at his sister's house he sent me a few texts, but never responded to the last one I sent about making plans for the following day. One of my guy friends called me to go out with him that same night, and after a few drinks I checked my phone to see if Adam had replied to my message. He never had. I sent him a few texts demanding to know what his intentions were, and he only responded with "awkward." I figured it was over. I put him on the spot, and he still didn't give me an answer. The next morning I woke up to find a few texts from him. He said that he planned to see me later that day, yet never gave me a time. For a few hours I heard nothing from Adam. I carried on with my day until about 4pm when he finally wanted to know when I would be available. Once he was at my place things seemed fine. He explained to me about the things he is studying, and showed me his notes. I finally realized that this guy is really intelligent, and will get completely absorbed into whatever he is doing. What would have been the brush off from another guy is just a complete zone out on his part. He wasn't ignoring me. He ignores anything that is not what he is reading. Once I was with him he was intently focused on me. It was great. I did tell him that I worry about how emotionally available he may (not) be after his last relationship dissolved the way it did. I think that things are far more open between us now, and I am getting to know the particulars about this person. In the process I seem to be learning a lot about myself.